The Autistic Mystic Podcast (M)

Welcome to Autistic As F*ck! This is not your typical autism podcast. I created this show so girls and gays like me wouldn't feel so alone in their journey of understanding their brain. I will be sharing my lived experience as it pertains to autism and my identity intersections. I won't share research studies, this isn't a teachable moment as much as a witnessing. You are welcome here to listen, cackle and commiserate.

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I know I’m not the only one who immediately read Bella Baxter as autistic! In this episode I explore all the ways I took Poor Things to be an allegory for autistic womens’ coming of age. There will be spoilers.

For those of you who don't know (get to know! Watch it, it's fabulous): 'Poor Things' is a movie about a woman "brought back to life by an unorthodox scientist. She runs off with a lawyer on a whirlwind adventure across the continents. Free from the prejudices of her times, she grows steadfast in her purpose to stand for equality and liberation." Directed by Yorgos Lanthimos and written by Tony McNamara, starring Emma Stone, Mark Ruffalo, Willem Dafoe, Ramy Youssef, Christopher Abbott, and Jerrod Carmichael. It wont 4 Oscars at the Academy Awards: Best Actress in a Leading Role, Best Production Design, Best Costume Design, Best Makeup and Hairstyling.

02:16 Exploring Autistic Traits Through Bella's Journey

06:24 Naivety and Sincerity

18:08 “Polite Society” and Ridiculous Social Norms

21:35 Difficulty Navigating Friendships and Relationships 

25:35 Hyperfixations and Sexuality

26:57 Challenging Gender Norms and Societal Expectations

32:02 Concluding Thoughts on 'Poor Things' and Its Impact

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This episode flits between several topics that all tie together quite nicely: bad dating advice, Dune 2 (spoilers) and its representation of black and brown people, racism and the genocide in Palestine, strong sense of justice, the pain of being perceived and navigating social media hierarchy, the lack of resources for autistic adults, whitewashing of history through film and television

TRIGGER WARNING: I use the word s*icide

Here are the time stamps:

02:19 News flash, autistic kids grow up! And adult autism is underrepresented in terms of resources.

03:12 Navigating Life's Contradictions: Childhood Lessons vs Adult Realities

08:43 Neurotypical dating advice will ruin you

12:05 The Need for Autistic Adult Resources and Community

15:56 The pains of being perceived on social media

18:28 Autistic trait - a strong sense of justice

20:00 The media's obsession with showing POC brutalized

21:00 Whitewashing of history through film and television

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Amanda Seales is being unfairly dog-pilled on. When people are cut down because they're honest and direct, what does this say about society at large? If it's unsafe for a successful, effective, beautiful allistic woman to be unflinching in her anti-establishment critiques, what hope is there for the average black autistic woman? This episode dissects bullying dynamics, the price of honesty, Hollywood, blackness and the isolation that comes from being a truth-teller.

00:35 The Unfair Treatment of Amanda Seales and Its Implications on black autistic women

03:00 The Intersection of Autism, Likability, and Professional Success

05:44 Black Hollywood, oppression, bullies thrive in silence

10:38 Hollywood archetypes and bullying

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I went to a queer brunch and had the most fascinating experience. This episode discusses my reflections on:

Social Anxiety, Solipsism and Self-Awareness

The fundamental loneliness of being an adult

The Harsh Realities of Adulthood

The Complexities of Dating and Social Expectations

Group Vulnerability and Shared Experiences

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TRIGGER WARNING: S*icide

I've been having a hard time making meaning out of life - what with societal collapse, genocides hustle culture - and wanted to share some conclusions I made about why it is better to stay alive than to opt out. I hope this episode makes you feel seen and a little less alone.

Themes discussed:

Arguments in favour of staying alive

Finding joy while the world is burning

Finding ones place in the world

Autism and justice sensitivity 

Magic and nature 

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This episode is my case against casual sex! Sex is glorious and awesome and I hope we all have more of it. However we can't ignore the challenges inherent to autism that make us very bad candidates for casual sex. In this episode I unpack autistic sensitivities and accommodations that would make “casual” sex, anything but that. I discuss:

• The double burden of having to unmask and contend with socialisation that has made women fawn and struggle to self advocate
• Meltdowns, breakdowns and going nonverbal during stressful intimacy
• What does safe vs. unsafe sex look like for autistic women
• The importance of building self trust
• Double speak, manipulation vs. Directness
• Autistics and a trusting nature/naivity

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References

The Kiss Quotient by Helen Hoang

Pick Up Artists Examined: https://youtu.be/Tpuw_aPP-n4?si=zPnLDXnh9GDO-uHQ 

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This episode is a detailed review of the themes in Helen Hoang's "The Kiss Quotient". It's an ICONIC book which inspired a lot of thought. I discuss autistic self-esteem, sexual exploration and platonic intimacy. More specifically:

00:00 Overview of the book 'The Kiss Quotient' with spoilers

00:15 Exploring Sexual Content in Literature vs. Pornography

04:22 Discussing the Emotional Journey of Reading 'The Kiss Quotient'

08:12 Stella's Story: Autistic Representation and Love

15:24 Reflecting on Personal Growth and Autistic Experiences

23:29 Navigating Social Interactions and Misunderstandings

25:04 Sensory Overload and Emotional Challenges during sex

26:41 Exploring Intimacy and Consent as an autistic woman

30:27 The Journey of self-understanding and Acceptance

45:36 Reflections on Work, Life, and Autistic Representation

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Having to work to live sucks, least of all when how your brain is built doesn't support consistent productivity. In this episode I discuss how difficult I find entrepreneurship and employment, and how much I resent having to betray myself at work just to maintain basic human rights (food, shelter). I get into:

• Entrepreneurship and how it triggers our fear of being perceived
• Capitalism and the illusion of choice
• Workplaces wanting your time and not your productivity
• The unfairness and impossibility of monetizing a passion
• Fundamental incongruities of autism and conventional offices

References:

Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata

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On this episode I discuss:

• autistic burnout vs. Depression
• Affirmations feel like lies
• the emotional cost of managing everyday life
• The cost of hidden disabilities
• Moral imperatives
• The selfishness of Nihilism
• Thought distortions
• The applications of optimism, hope, pessimism and nihilism 

References: 

Rebecca Solnit interview - https://open.spotify.com/episode/45Qgrl4kcHVap19qqVc2G6?si=7989f4dd4f044276

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My life has changed for the better due to entering my thirties and understanding my brain more (autism). I'v begun the process of building authentic self-esteem and discuss this in depth. Namely:

• The tenets of improved self esteem
• Tools to reframe self care if you’re struggling to take your needs seriously
• Putting respeck on your name: not diminishing your talents
• When is self deprecation appropriate
• Disassociation as a coping mechanism
• Learning what boundaries are and tuning to my needs
• Parentification, Codependence and Emotional incest
• Sexual advocacy
• How autism has shifted my personal style
• Getting better at self advocacy
• Trusting my intuition
• Rejecting the idea of ‘coming out’
• The guilt of prioritising my needs

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On this episode I discuss:

• Identifying the internalised belief that the outcome of social situations is your sole responsibility 
• Learning to centre your enjoyment in social situations
• Practical tools to start handing back 50% of the ‘social load’ of an interaction

References: 

Instagram Reel referenced: https://www.instagram.com/reel/C94Kwi3IaPx/

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