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11 Jan 2023Episode 1 - Lets do this !00:18:55

Listen in as Rosie and Lu discuss (with varying degrees of success)  what motivated them to create Widowed AF.  

Find out, from the coal face, what it means to be young and widowed in today’s world.


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16 Jan 2023Episode 2 - Obliterated AF00:39:06

*** TRIGGER WARNING:   DRUGS,  SUDDEN DEATH, ADULT THEMES  ***

Get ready for an emotional and inspiring episode! Tune in as Rosie sits down for a solo interview and welcomes special guest Lulu, who bravely shares her personal story of loss and how she was able to rebuild her life. Don't miss this powerful and uplifting episode!

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19 Jan 2023Episode 3 - Weeble AF00:33:03

*** TRIGGER WARNING:   SUDDEN DEATH, ADULT THEMES  ***

(Because they wobble but never fall) 

In this week’s episode, you’ll hear host Rosie tell her story, in her own words,  to Lulu. 

It’s a heart-wrenching tale of how  life can change in the blink of an eye, and what really happens next. 

Rosie’s husband, Ben, was lost at sea during a scuba trip. His body was never found. This episode is both a tribute to her love, and to a strength you’ll hope you never need.

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25 Jan 2023Episode 4 - Chatty AF00:21:30

Because conversations lead to conversations.  

Lulu and Rosie revisit recent episodes, chat about their week and answer any of your questions. 

This is lighter more irreverent insight into widow life, no tissues required.

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31 Jan 2023Episode 5 - Phoenix AF00:47:19

** TRIGGER WARNING : CANCER **

A conversation with Jonathan Gill-Moss (the Phoenix of the North), Widow(er) and husband of host Rosie. 

Jon speaks openly and with brutal candour about watching the woman he loved disappear before him. It is a story of great love, sadness and hope. Tissue warning ⚠️ 

We had some technical issues recording this episodes which lost Lulu . She is just about  over it (😜).



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03 Feb 2023Episode 6 - Chatty AF00:21:20

Listen in as Rosie and Lulu discuss this week’s episode and the impact the podcast is  having  around them.  You’ll hear more tales from the coalface of Wid-Life and witness Rosie’s embarrassment when faced with explaining ‘widows fire’. Enjoy!

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06 Feb 2023Episode 7 - Rainbow AF00:42:17

*** Sudden Death, Cancer ***

⚠️Tissue warning issued.  ⚠️

Join the team as they speak to an inspiring woman who was widowed TWICE before she turned 30.

Jess’ story is heart-breaking but it is also a testament to both romantic love and a to mother’s fierce devotion. 
 

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13 Feb 2023Episode 9 - Queer AF00:30:07

*** Trigger warnings  suicide, self-harm, sudden death ***

This is Antony’s story.  

Anthony’s husband, Andrew, took his own life.

Here you can listen as he courageously opens up about the previously unspoken. 

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10 Feb 2023Episode 8 - Professional AF00:19:59

Join LuLu and Rosie as they reflect on the week, answer your questions and reminisce over fried chicken.

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17 Feb 2023Episode 10 - Resilient AF00:19:26

In this week’s chat we look back at Monday’s moving episode with Antony. 

We also received our first voice message (thanks Steph!). 

Listen in as we discuss yet more of the curiosities of widowhood.

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20 Feb 2023Episode 11 - Dignity00:16:26

This is story so powerful, so painful  and so divisive that our guest has requested complete anonymity

We will read you a letter that they have written us, it is a unique insight into assisted dying in Switzerland. 

It is fascinating, devastating and awe inspiring. You are very unlikely to have heard anything like this before. 

⚠️This is a serious episode and comes with a high mascara warning.⚠️

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27 Feb 2023Episode 13 - Shattered AF00:33:06

LA based Anthony Del Broccolo joins us to tell his story in this week’s moving episode. 

Anthony’s wife, Courtney, died during the birth of their second child. To hear him describe leaving hospital that day alone sends chills to the heart. 
We are so grateful to him for sharing this with us.


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24 Feb 2023Episode 12 - Thought provoking AF00:42:17

** TRIGGER WARNING : Suicide , Assisted Death **

This week we continued the conversation around Assisted Dying with special guest Ellie Ball. 

Ellie, who works for the campaign group Dignity in Dying, answered your questions and gave us much food for thought. 

Have a listen and let us know what you think. 🎧🎤
(We are pleased to report Mavis was found not guilty)

For more information on this subject you can call Compassion in dying on 0800 999 2434

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06 Mar 2023Episode 15 - The Show Must Go On00:34:18

This episode is a conversation with Liz Towner. 

Liz’s husband, Steve, lost the battle with his own mind in 2020 and  tragically took his own life. 

So many of us wonder if we could survive the impact of that loss. Yet survive she did, and she continues to thrive with while supporting their three boys through their loss. 

This is once again a story of unimaginable pain but also of deep love, compassion and a determination to walk through hell and live. 

We are humbled.

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03 Mar 2023Episode 14 - Reflective AF00:16:59

Join Rosie and Lulu as they discuss the response to Anthony’s episode, share a message from a listener  and reflect on time passing without them. 

Both had birthdays this week which can throw up all sorts of feelings and force you to find new ways to celebrate, which isn’t always a bad thing. 

Listen at your usual places and please do subscribe to be the first for new episodes. 

(We made it into the sea, and it was proper cool. In every sense 🥶 

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10 Mar 2023Epsidoe 16 - FEELS AF00:30:57

Following Liz’s powerful episode earlier  this week, we reached out  to an expert in child bereavement.

Debbie, from the charity Holding On Letting Go, joined Lulu to talk about the  enormous impact  of sudden traumatic loss on our children.

For anyone supporting , or wanting to support, someone this is a valuable and informative chat. (Small mascara warning)

Guest appearance from Mr Gill-Moss too 😉

Providing bereavement support and advice to children and young people.

https://holdingonlettinggo.org.uk/

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13 Mar 2023Episode 17 - Unmarried AF00:40:05

Today we bring you Julie’s story.
 
In 2016, her partner and doting dad, Fraser, tragically fell to his death climbing the peak of Ben Nevis. What happened next is a catalogue of injustice, all because they weren’t married.

Julie gives eye-opening  insight into the hostility and discrimination still faced by many widows.

 Widowed Parent Benefit (which you can backdate!) - https://www.gov.uk/bereavement-support-payment/eligibility

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20 Mar 2023Episode 19 - Outnumbered AF00:45:06

This is  Sarah’s story. 

Sarah’s life was blown apart when a routine check resulted in a terminal diagnosis for her husband. 


In this conversation she tells Rosie how she and their three children have made it through hell. It’s unexpectedly funny too, she’s awesome. 


Have a listen and let us know what you think…..


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27 Mar 2023Episode 21 - Just Keep Swimming00:35:31

This is Laura’s story. Simon died suddenly, and at home, in 2021 leaving Laura and their young children reeling. 

In a cruel twist of fate, within months of this tragedy she received a cancer diagnosis.

Listen as Laura bravely describes how she lived through one of every mother’s greatest fears. 

Marvel at how even in the pits of despair a glimmer of light can be found. 

As always, the mascara warning is high but respect and awe levels are even higher. 

⚠️Trigger Warnings ⚠️: sudden death, cardiac arrest, cancer


Paced breathing DBT : TIPP - Skills, Worksheets, Videos, & Activities

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17 Mar 2023Episode 18 - Trumpets00:17:50

Today, Rosie and Lulu delve into the events that have unfolded over the past week, including Julie's story from Monday. 

Together, they reflect on the key takeaways from Julie's experience, and share their thoughts and opinions on the matter. 

Tune in and join us as we take a deep dive into the latest happenings of the week.

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24 Mar 2023Episode 20 - Cortisone Confusion00:26:36

Join Rosie and her  (alive) husband, Jon,  as they discuss the recently published findings of how grief impacts the whole body. 

A thought provoking insight into another unknown facet of widowhood. 

You’ll a message from Lu who has since been discharged from hospital and is recovering  safely at home with Scarlett. 

Click Download to hear new episodes first.

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03 Apr 2023Episode 23 - Transformative AF00:52:07

Back in April 2020, as the world stood still, Emma’s husband Jamie died  from Covid 19, he was just 38. 

Emma is incredible, you can’t help but like her and respect the way she has chosen to live for them both. 

This is a hard listen and we both got  upset during recording.  But it’s an invaluable insight into what losing someone at this unprecedented time was really like. 

On Friday we will bring you  the perspective of a nurse who worked in the ICU at this time. Don’t miss it. 

Available at the usual places, tell your friends yeah 😉

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31 Mar 2023Episode 22 - Speedy coffee pyramid scheme00:18:01

Join Rosie and husband Jon as they discuss the week’s episode and go down the odd rabbit hole. 

Pyramid schemes, unscrupulous practices and health anxiety all expose the vulnerabilities of widows.

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10 Apr 2023Episode 25 - Injustice00:45:07

This week we speak to Nicky, a former national champion racer who turned her tragedy into strength.

Nicky's husband Mike was an avid biker. He lost his life in a bike accident, leaving Nicky to navigate life as a widow.

Nicky's journey to find peace after losing Mike was not without challenges. When the coroner indicated that Mikes blood contains illegal drugs, Nicky new this couldnt be true when set about to challenge the coroners findings to  protect her husbands legcay.

Despite the odds, Nicky refused to let her grief hold her back. She used her passion for racing to stay connected with the Motorsport community and became a regular marshal at races on weekends.

Nicky's story of resilience and determination is an inspiration to all. Hear more about her journey on the podcast Widowed AF. Tune in to be inspired and learn how Nicky turned her tragedy into strength.

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07 Apr 2023Episode 24 - Close Call AF00:29:30

Husband and Wife team Rosie and Jon discuss the enormous impact Covid had on them personally and what stating into the abyss (again!) really felt like. 

We have never spoken publicly about this before, both of us cry. 

This is genuine emotion, along with some candid insights  into married life, and blended families. 

We are very grateful to both Emma and our anonymous contributor for helping us make this happen.

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17 Apr 2023Episode 27 - Not Giving Up01:08:12

This week we are joined by Laura Malin, whose husband Adam died in 2016 from Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, a type of blood cancer he had bravely fought for over ten years. Adam’s positivity and determination to embrace life will blow you away. This is the story of a man who lived and loved with infectious energy and tenacity; a man never gave up.

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14 Apr 2023Episode 26 - Reunited AF00:25:21

Lulu is back! 
Join us as we delve into the murky world of grief once more. 
There’s inappropriate giggling, the food shop arrives (thank goodness  for editing!) and lovely Julie makes a guest appearance. 

Happy listening!

Links

https://www.coronerscourtssupportservice.org.uk/

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24 Apr 2023EP 29 - Loved AF00:47:15

Sasha moves  across the Atlantic to be with her love, and love him she really did. 


Cancer took its hold and tragically their happy ever after was stolen. 


Life is so cruel sometimes but people are incredible , and sometimes that is what shines through. 


This is Sasha and Andy’s story. 


#widwed #cancerwidow #widowedandyoung #stronggirlsclub #grief #griefjourney #theloveliveson

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21 Apr 2023Episode 28 - Asthmatic hamster00:25:02

Rosie and Jon discuss the complexities of new relationships, bereavement in children and grabbing life by the balls.

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28 Apr 2023Episode 30 - Reflective AF00:25:35

Rosie and Jon reflect on Sasha’s moving episode and how it made them think about how and when we say goodbye. 

What happens at the end of a life is often so taboo, and really scary. Here we talk openly about the conflicting feelings and fears you may experience and why all of them are ok. 

More insight into dating post death too, and a brief appearance from previous  guest, Emma Bellamy. Spoiler, it’s not always easy!

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01 May 2023Episode 31 - Brilliant AF00:57:02

In this powerful and very moving episode American guest, Emily, shares the story of her husband, Jeremy. 

She opens up to Rosie about coping with grief and supporting their children, while also navigating the responsibilities of daily life.

Throughout the episode, you hear the strength  of their love and are left knowing the importance of finding those moments of joy. 
 
#grief #love #widowed #widowedandyoung #widowedparent #widowedliving #coloncancerawareness #hotyoungwidowsclub #terriblethanksforasking

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08 May 2023EP 33 - Held AF00:52:41

In this heartfelt episode, Elizabeth shares her journey with her late husband, Mike, as they navigated his battle with sarcoma. She opens up about the challenges they faced, the support they received, and the moments of joy they shared. From the significance of their weekly card game gatherings to the importance of maintaining connections, Elizabeth's story is a poignant reminder of the resilience and love that can be found even amidst life's most difficult circumstances

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05 May 2023Episode 32 - Cold AF00:24:38

Rosie and Jon give listeners another peek inside the complex world of widowed life. 

Join them as they discuss the importance of sitting with grief or strong emotions and finding healthy ways to express and process these feelings. 

This conversation also touches on societal misconceptions about grief, the impact on mental health, and the benefits of sitting in a tub of cold water. 

Plus you get to hear Jon choke on the words ‘self love’. 😉

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12 May 2023Episode 34 - Rebuilding00:27:03

In the latest episode of Widowed AF, join host Rosie Gil Moss and co-host Jonathan Gill-Moss as they reflect on the inspiring story of Elizabeth and her late husband, Mike. The episode has received overwhelming positive feedback, and for good reason.Elizabeth's resilience and positivity shine through as she shares her story of grief and the strength it takes to move forward.The episode also delves into the complexities of returning to work while grieving, with insights on creating supportive work environments and understanding  how very difficult this step can be. Listen now on your favorite podcast platform. #WidowsAF #Podcast #GriefSupport #Resilience

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15 May 2023Episode 35 - Taboo AF01:02:35

In today’s episode, Rosie speaks to Nicky Wake, an entrepreneur, about the horrific injury that left her husband brain damaged, and the Covid he contracted in a nursing home, ultimately ending his life. 

After Andy died Nicky tentatively  dipped her toe into the dating world and was underwhelmed and disheartened by what she found. So, being a woman who makes things happen, she launched an app just for Widows called Chapter 2 Dating.

Subsequently Nicky realised that  there was a gap in the market for more fleeting encounters, or ‘delicious distractions ’ as she calls them, and created a new ‘hook-up’ app, Widow’s Fire.

We would be really interested to hear your thoughts on this, we will definitely be discussing it on Friday….


If you wish to take a look at what Nicky is offering,  here are the links you need

https://www.chapter2dating.app/

https://www.widowsfire.co.uk/

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22 May 2023Episode 37 - Sorted AF01:12:14

In this emotional episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill Moss speaks with Emma Gray about her experience with grief and loss. Emma's husband Simon passed away from oesophageal cancer in 2016, leaving behind their two young daughters. Emma shares her story of meeting Simon, his time in the military, and his diagnosis. Throughout their conversation, Emma emphasizes the importance of understanding and talking about death with children, and how to navigate the challenging administrative tasks that come with losing a loved one.

Rosie and Emma also discuss the impact of grief on neurodivergent individuals, and how Emma's own grief exposed her neurodivergence while her daughter's grief hid hers. Emma is now a grief and trauma counsellor, and she shares her thoughts on the importance of preparing for death and the value of investing in therapy as a means of coping with grief and trauma.

Despite the heaviness of the subject matter, Emma and Rosie's conversation is filled with warmth, humour, and a deep understanding of the complexities of grief. Listeners will come away with a renewed appreciation for the preciousness of life and the importance of taking care of ourselves and our loved ones while we still can.

Trigger warning: This episode contains discussions of cancer.

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19 May 2023Episode 3600:21:30

Today, we're reflecting on Nicky's powerful interview, focusing on the bittersweet concept of anticipatory grief. It's a tough one, isn't it? How it somehow both prepares and shakes us in the face of loss.

We also take a closer look at Nicky's venture into the dating world. It's a unique and sometimes daunting experience navigating a dating website as a widower. Sounds relatable? Let's explore this together.

Later in the episode, we'll touch on Rosie's recent participation in a webinar. It was an enlightening experience, emphasizing the overlooked yet substantial impact of 'Sadmin' on widows and widowers. For those grappling with these administrative tasks amidst grief, we acknowledge you, we're with you.

So, let's dive into this open and heartfelt conversation about grief, loss, and the journey that follows. Here on "Widowed AF", we're navigating this path together. Remember, you're not alone. We look forward to having you with us.

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29 May 2023Episode 39 - Time is precious AF00:55:50

In this episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss invites Nico Lloyd to tell her story. 

Nico's husband, Mark, was diagnosed with brain cancer in 2014 and given 12-18 months to live. However, he survived for several years, and Nico shares the story of living with someone who is terminally ill and how she involved their young children. 

Despite the challenges, Nico and her family found ways to thrive. She describes how her children have grown into emotionally mature and empathetic individuals, it really is a testament  to the power and love of a family. 

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#widowea #widowed_af
#widowedandyoung
#Widowedparent
#widowedpodcast
#griefjourney 
#grief 
#healing 
#loveandloss
#reluctantwidow

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05 Jun 2023Episode 41 - Betrayed AF00:43:32

Today we hear  Tash’s story.  Tash married her husband, Rob,  in the hospice as cancer consumed him, and was left to raise their son alone. 

The discovery that he was not the man she thought, meant that her grief has been complex and at times has  made her feel different. 

Listen to  how she clawed her way back to life and found a path back to happy.

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26 May 2023Episode 38 - Chatty AF00:25:56

In today’s chatty one, Rosie and Jon reflect on Emma’s episode, and particularly on the unique experience of the military widow. 

They discuss the ‘Wilderness Years’, that confusing time between the initial shock of the loss and the start of the healing process. A time it’s sometimes easy to forget in the fog of bereavement. 

Rosie also shares how her recent solo trip away went, and you’ll find out how Jon got on with the tribe at home.

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02 Jun 2023Episode 40 - Chatty00:13:11

 This short and sweet  episode is brought to you from the glorious Isle of Wight. 

Rosie and Jon are visiting her late husband’s family but manage to escape the kids long enough to discuss the complexities of in-law relationships after death. 

Join us for more  insight and guidance from the weird old world of widowhood.

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12 Jun 2023Episode 43 - Still Strong AF00:52:16

What if your entire world came crashing down in the blink of an eye? We're joined by Kathy Lockett from Surrey who courageously shares her heart-wrenching story of loss, detailing her husband Tim's battle with depression and his tragic suicide. This incredibly powerful and emotional conversation sheds light on the impact of such a loss on Kathy and her family, and how important honesty and openness have been in helping them cope with the tragedy.

Kathy's determination to break the taboo around discussing suicide and mental health is truly inspiring. We delve into the challenges she and her family faced, including the insensitive comments and difficult conversations that arose when people discovered the cause of her husband's death. We also celebrate the tremendous strength and resilience demonstrated by Kathy's son who managed to face his school exams amidst the emotional turmoil of losing his father.

This episode goes beyond the heartache, exploring Kathy's journey to healing and moving on from the loss of her husband. We discuss the complexities of dating after such a loss, the importance of mental health awareness, and how Kathy has worked to keep her late husband's memory alive. Join us for an important and thought-provoking conversation on love, loss, and the powerful courage required to face grief head-on.

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09 Jun 2023Episode 42 - Team Work Makes The Dream Work00:20:04

When we think about grief, we often imagine it as a dark, all-consuming emotion. But what if it were possible to find light and hope amidst the pain? 

Throughout the episode, we dive into the complex emotions that accompany grief and discuss strategies for coping and moving forward.  John open up about how he finally understands the importance of sitting with our grief and why allowing ourselves to feel both sadness and happiness can ultimately lead to growth and gratitude.

 When all feels lost, listen in to find hope and inspiration for your own journey through grief.

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16 Jun 2023Episode 4400:25:58

Ever struggled with opening up about your emotions? As men, it's often difficult for us to share our feelings, but we're tackling this tough topic head-on. Join us in this heartfelt episode as we discuss last Monday's gut-wrenching conversation with Kathy Lockett and explore the importance of mental health and communication among men. We share our thoughts on having meaningful conversations anywhere from the pub to coffee chats, and how simply vocalizing our feelings can make a world of difference.

What happens when we don't set boundaries to protect our mental health? Tim opens up about his mental health journey and the significance of establishing healthy limits. We also take you behind the scenes as we record this episode in our new garden studio, surrounded by the blissful chaos of our children playing. By the end, you'll understand why sometimes just saying things out loud can help, even if you're not talking to anyone else. So, grab a cup of coffee, sit back, and let's chat about mental health, communication, and self-care together.

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19 Jun 2023Episode 45 - Sudden AF01:12:23

I recently had the incredible honor of speaking to Steph May Hills, who shared her raw and powerful journey of losing her husband, Martin, and navigating the aftermath of such a heart-wrenching tragedy. Our conversation delves into their beautiful love story, the ordinary life they shared before Martin passed away suddenly in November 2021, and how the little moments are what Steph holds onto in her heart.

As a mother, Steph's strength is truly inspiring as she recounts the delicate process of helping her children cope with the loss of their father. Listen in as she discusses the importance of love and resilience, even in the most difficult of circumstances, and the comfort she's found in her new furry friend, Moon. But Steph's story doesn't end there; she bravely opens up about the shocking revelation of secrets and betrayal after Martin's death, and how she's moving forward through grief.

Our conversation also touches on the loneliness of being a widower at 38, and how Steph's relationships with others have shifted, leaving her feeling like a piece of her died with Martin. We explore the idea that grief changes a person beyond measure and the importance of taking the time to reflect on the progress made in our grief journey. This episode is an emotional rollercoaster that serves as a reminder that love never dies, and finding ways to keep a loved one's memory alive is crucial.

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23 Jun 2023Episode 4600:22:57

  In this episode of Widowed AF, hosts Rosie and Jon Gill-Moss discuss their recent emotional challenges and the importance of showing vulnerability.  They have a special message from guest Steph May Hills, who shared her story on Monday. 

The conversation touches on the need for better support for men's mental health. The hosts also share their own experiences with mental health and getting tattoos in mid -life. 

Raw, funny and honest, this episode is a reminder that grief and mental health struggles are a universal experience that can be eased by openness and support.

We must apologise, but Rosie says the word ‘moist’, quite unnecessarily. 

Thank you so much for listening, If you have enjoyed our podcast please leave us a review, and put Jon out his misery 

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26 Jun 2023#47 - David Kanarfogel - Super Dad AF00:43:38

When we lost our spouses, my guest David Kanifogel and I found solace and strength in a widowhood support group. We never imagined that it would become a crucial part of our healing journey, providing a safe space for discussing topics we couldn't share elsewhere. Join us as we dive into our experiences with the Hot Young Widows Club spin-off group and the impact it had on our lives.

David's world was turned upside down when his wife, Hindi, passed away, leaving him to care for their five children. He had to learn to navigate single parenthood, manage the household, and provide emotional support to his grieving kids. We explore how he handled these challenges, as well as how our group helped him process his own emotions and tackle the societal expectations placed upon grieving fathers. 

But life has a way of surprising us, even in the midst of grief. David's decision to take his children on an adventure to Israel ultimately led to a new chapter in their lives—blending families with his partner, Bacheva, and building a new life together. We discuss the joys and challenges of step-parenting, maintaining a connection to our late spouses, and the hope that exists even as we carry our grief with us. This is a conversation that will resonate with anyone who has experienced loss and is looking for support, understanding, and connection.

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30 Jun 2023#EP 48 - Chatty00:24:04

The complexities and highs of managing a big family, the power of grief, and the unique experience of hearing your own voice - we're discussing it all and so much more. This episode is full of raw, touching moments and personal insights, as we share the stage with David, a father of eight, who had the unimaginable task of breaking the news of their mother's death to his five children. David's experience teaches us about life's unfairness and how one navigates through such difficult times.

We delve into the intricacies of blended families and the paramount importance of honouring the memory of a deceased parent. Be part of our journey as we relive going  to see Pink at Hyde Park - an emotionally uplifting adventure that contrasts with the powerlessness of prolonged struggles. And guess what? We've got a special treat for you! Julia Samuel, the author of the renowned book, Grief Works, will be joining us on the podcast.

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03 Jul 2023#49 - Eileen O'Brien00:42:31

Join me, your host Rosie Gill-Moss, as we navigate through a heartrending tale of loss and resilience. Our guest, Eileen O’Brien, bravely shares her experience of losing her partner, Scott, to the relentless grasp of Covid-19. Eileen's journey, both harrowing and profound, uncovers the raw emotions of love, fear, and finally, grief, experienced in the face of a global pandemic. Her story underscores the pandemic's Russian roulette-like impact on our lives, making it a compelling listen for anyone grappling with similar situations.

Imagine the anxiety of witnessing your loved one's deteriorating condition, and the guilt associated with not being present during their final moments. Eileen's candid expression of these emotions provides a heart-wrenching insight into the unpredictable ordeal of Covid-19. Listen in as she shares her experiences of Scott's ICU journey, the torturous wait for daily updates, and the devastating moment when Scott was intubated, offering an intimate exploration of grief and the struggle of accepting a loved one's mortality.

Yet, amidst the storm of loss, Eileen discovered the resilience to navigate her grief. Returning to work, she found a semblance of normalcy and purpose, a distraction from her profound grief. Through conversations with Eileen, we learn the importance of companionship, both human and four-legged, in the healing process. Hear how Eileen's courage and strength have not only helped her find happiness again, but also empowered others experiencing similar situations. Listen for a poignant reminder of the devastating effects of Covid-19 and the resilient human spirit in the face of loss.

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05 Jul 2023Unmasking Grief - The Path to Healing with Julia Samuel00:39:34

Picture this: you're trying to navigate through the murky waters of grief, you're overwhelmed, your heart is heavy - and then, you have to explain death to a child. How do you do that? How do you help a child understand grief? These were the tricky questions I tackled with Julia Samuel, an expert in bereavement and author of Grief Works, in this thought-provoking conversation. Julia's insights, drawn from her vast experience in the bereavement sector and her work with families whose babies and children passed away, brought new dimensions of understanding to these heavy topics.

As we engaged in our candid conversation, we exchanged thoughts on the layered complexities of grief and healing. We explored the power of validation, the strength of community, and the importance of mindful parenting in fostering a healthy environment for grieving children. We touched on vital aspects of self-care and the role it plays in navigating personal grief. 

Julia explained our instinct to shield our children from pain and loss and how, at times, this can paradoxically hinder their understanding and acceptance of grief. 

We further discussed practical tools that can help those grieving, specifically the Grief Works app developed by Julia. This app is designed to support and manage the grieving process actively. We discussed its functionalities, including the 28-day course it offers, its affordability, and how it can be gifted to friends or family in need. From discussing the nuances of grief and therapy to sharing the power of vulnerability and authentic conversations in connecting with people, this conversation with Julia Samuel was profoundly enlightening, offering solace to anyone on their own personal journey through loss and grief.

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07 Jul 2023#50 - Chatty00:28:03

As we celebrate an amazing achievement of 25,000 downloads, we're also taking a deep breath and diving into the deep end of topics many fear to tread - death. Remember Eileen? She graciously shared her heartbreaking experience of losing her partner to COVID-19 in our previous episode. Her story has a haunting resemblance to my battle with the virus in the ICU, which fortunately, I survived. In a world dealing with the ravages of a pandemic, we find ourselves grappling with grief, loss, and the grim reality of mortality. 

Nothing quite prepares you for the powerlessness that accompanies the inability to be with a loved one in their final moments. The suddenness of death, the shock of it all, can leave one reeling and profoundly impacts the journey of grief. We recount the story of a brave couple who stared death in the face, the choices they made in the midst of the pandemic, and how they navigated life-altering decisions. We touch on the importance of acknowledging our own mortal fears, and the unsettling realization that despite doing everything right, life can still throw us a curveball. 

Powerlessness. It's a word that rings with a harsh reality and it's a feeling that can trigger trauma, especially in children. This episode explores the therapeutic power of giving voice to the voiceless and how sharing traumatic experiences can aid in healing. Autonomy for children, creating and sharing memories - these are crucial elements of our discussion. As we share our personal struggles with revisiting memories of our loved ones, we acknowledge the courage required to confront these powerful images and emotions. Here's to grief, trauma, healing, and above all, the remarkable human capacity to endure.

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10 Jul 2023#51 - Jimmy Wild00:36:40

Today, I share a profound conversation with the incredible Jimmy Wild. He tells us his poignant story of love, loss, and a journey of resilience that is sure to leave an indelible mark on your heart. We journey through the joys of Jimmy's relationship, the unique challenges he faced as an unmarried partner, and the morning that turned his world upside down.

Let's face it; life is full of unpredictable turns, and sometimes the path we get thrust on can be a lonely one. Jimmy and I dive headfirst into the harsh realities of his world post-Tom. We unpack the gut-wrenching decisions, the tidal waves of grief, and the strength it takes to say goodbye, navigate loss, and redefine your identity. But grief, while merciless, can also be a powerful teacher. And Jimmy's story serves as a potent lesson in self-care, the importance of support networks, and dealing with societal stigma.

As we round up our conversation, Jimmy sheds light on his life now, how he's picked up the pieces, and is slowly but surely honoring Tom's legacy. From the financial security Tom left behind, to Jimmy's first car and home, it's a testament to their shared dreams and Tom's lasting impact. We also talk about his housemate, Eason, a beacon of support in these tumultuous times. Remember, while the journey might be tough, there's a whole world of compassion and connection waiting for you at the other end, and Jimmy's story is a shining example of that very resilience. So tune in, and let's heal together.

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14 Jul 2023#52 - Chatty00:22:13

Imagine a scenario where your partner's last words to you  were "Shut the fu*k up" and it was still funny? That's the kind of story our guest Jimmy Wild brings to the table. 

When Jimmy lost his soulmate, Tom, at just 30, he was plunged into a whirlpool of grief. But in his darkest hours, he found unexpected moments of joy and humour. He shares this journey with us, illuminating the importance of cherishing the present and the power of last words.

Rosie bares her soul about a recent Mental Health wobble and the experience of asking for help and finding more closed doors. 

As we wrap up this episode, we reflect on the idea of recording our stories to preserve our legacies and staying resilient in the face of unpredictable endings. So, tune in as we navigate the bittersweet nuances of life, love, and loss.

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17 Jul 2023#53 - Erica Ferreira01:00:57

This episode of Widowed AF brings you Erica’s story.

Erica is a strong and resilient woman who faced the harsh reality of her husband Julien's leukaemia diagnosis. 
Erica opens up about the initial months of grappling with her husband's symptoms, the struggle to get a proper diagnosis, and the emotional upheaval of dealing with his health crisis.

Erica's story is a powerful testament to the significance of advocacy in healthcare, the courage to assert oneself, and the necessity to prepare for the worst. They prepared for the worst, creating a 'Black Book of Doom' for all crucial information after he died. 

Despite the sorrow, Erica's resilience is truly inspiring - she organised a lockdown funeral, explained Julien's death to her children, and emphasised the importance of having difficult conversations. 

She talks about how she coped with grief, her struggle with seeking help, and the importance of finding joy in the present moment. 

 

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21 Jul 2023#54 - Chatty00:22:52


Links from the show :

Dr Alex George  on Deep Dive with Ali Abdaal  (click here)
Heres out affiliate link to the Grief Works app  

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22 Jul 2023#55 - Sarah Swainson01:13:56

Today’s episode opened our eyes to the realities of living with someone in active heroin addiction. The judgment, shame and secrecy that compounds the pain you are in. 

The reality is that this isn’t something that only to other people, and our guest Sarah Swainson was incredibly brave to share her story and give us some insight and compassion into this hidden world. 

 Sarah talks so openly about her late husband Paul's battle with heroin addiction, and the ripple effects it had on their family. But also about the love that they shared and they agony he was in. 

This episode will challenge your understanding of addiction as Sarah shares her intimate experiences from confronting Paul about his drug use, seeking help and ultimately how it ended his life. 

Hear how the lack of empathy and understanding in society can fuel the cycle of addiction and why it's crucial to view addiction as a coping strategy, and something that stems from pain and trauma, and is rarely a choice. 

Sarah recounts her healing journey, self-blame, and how she found the strength to rebuild her life and ensure a healthy future for her children. Prepare to hear insights into addiction, loss, and the unyielding spirit of those left behind.

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03 Aug 2023#56 - Chatty AF00:24:11

Rosie and Jon are back from a week off and raring to go!

We discuss the powerful episode shared by Sarah Swainson, in which she openly talks about loving someone in active addiction. The shame, stigma and isolation of living in that world. 

She is a powerhouse of a woman who survived the worst and chose to tell her story to help others.  You need to hear this one. 

We also cover blended families, holidays (or endurance tests) and Jon shares some health news. 

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04 Aug 2023#57 - Michael Coulson-Tabb00:57:56

In todays episode our guest Michael Coulson Tab takes us through the endearing love story with his late wife Alice, their delight at starting a family, and the shattering news of Aly's cancer diagnosis. As he shares how they moved up the wedding date amidst the turmoil, you can't help but admire their courage and tenacity.

In the throes of grief, Michael had to navigate the difficult landscape of solo parenting. He talks candidly about the pain, the struggles, and the little victories that punctuated his journey. You'll hear how he keeps Aly's memory alive for their son Teddy, and manages to balance life as a single father. But it's not just about parenting. He also delves into his battle with alcohol addiction, the pivotal role of social services, and his road to recovery. It's a raw, honest revelation on grief, resilience, and personal transformation.

We hope Michael's story has touched you as deeply as it has us. Remember, whether you're grieving, supporting a loved one, or simply seeking to understand the complexities of loss, this conversation is a profound one to tune into.

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14 Aug 2023#59 - Melissa Eboch01:25:26

This has to be one of the most powerful episodes to date. 

When Melissa applied to be a guest, despite having suffered two enormous losses, she quickly revealed her to be an utter powerhouse of a woman. 

Melissa was widowed twice in two of the most horrific ways, a drugs overdose and suicide. Yet somehow she gets up every day and shows their children love, hope and the that life is worth fighting for. 

I am so pleased we spoke and that you her story will reach those that so badly need to hear it. It was an honour to record it it I know you will be as moved as we were. 

Today's topics include: drug abuse, alcohol abuse, mental  health,and suicide.
Please do listen with caution ⚠️

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13 Aug 2023#58 - Snack Frisbees00:15:55

Rosie and Jon sneak off inbetween child wrangling and laundry to update listeners on widded life. 

We talk holidays, snack frisbees and  Widstock..

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11 Sep 2023#61 - Emma Charlesworth01:31:27

Today Rosie speaks with  Emma Charlesworth about life after the tragic death of her husband, Charlie, due to Covid-19.

Emma joins us to recount the harrowing events preceding Charlie's hospitalization, the desperate clutching at straws of optimism, and the heartrending choice to bid him goodbye. 

This was a tough one as it so closely mirrored Jon's own experience of Covid and how it's so closely cost him his life. 

Thank you to Emma  for opening up a world that we all lived  in fear of during that terrible time, and humanising the horrific experience of losing someone in lockdown.

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08 Sep 2023#60 - School’s Back, we are back00:27:23

We are BACK! 

Shiny new episode from Rosie and (alive) husband Jon. 
We discuss the trials and tribulations of the school holidays, and the added strain for those solo parenting throughout. 

Following on from Melissa's incredibly moving story, we delve a little deeper into our own mental health struggles and the coping strategies we use to mitigate them. 

Rosie opens up about navigating a diagnosis of PMDD and how that impacts the family as a whole and what treatments are available . 

Oh and the kids interrupted approximately 43 times. 

#widowed 
#widowedandyoung #Widowedparent #blendedfamily #pmdd #mentalheath #letstalkaboutdeathbaby
#adhdwomen #audhd #neurospicy  #addiction #recovery #widowed_af

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15 Sep 2023#62 - Chatty00:20:46

Join Rosie and Jon for a quickie (!) 
After another busy week in the G-M household. 

We talk vasectomy's, HRT, and the unrelenting mental load. 

We cover death a bit too.

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15 Sep 2023#63 Felicity Spearman01:21:48

Felicity Spearman joins Rosie to share her own unique story of loss. 
 
Her life was plunged into uncertainty when her husband Ryan, and dad to her two boys died suddenly abroad at just 37 years old. 

Somehow Felicity had kept the show on the road and shares the rollercoaster that is solo parenting bereaved children whilst in such agony herself. 

Felicity is inspirational, she has made the choice to live and to embrace all that entails. We are so grateful to her for sharing this with us.

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22 Sep 2023#64 - Chatty00:31:21

The dynamic duo (you may call us that now) are back with a catch up on life here at the Gill-Moss HQ. 

We cover a variety  of topics, not always necessarily the ones we planned.Parenting, mental health, love, legacy and tragedy. We got 'em all baby. 

Primarily  though we want to share with you the highs but also the lows of living a wonderful yet forever tainted life after loss.

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22 Sep 2023#65 - Vicky Chadwick00:41:48

The remarkable and incredibly kind Vicky Chadwick shares her story of losing her love to Covid and finding the strength to live again.

I am so proud to report that she messaged me to say she is three months sober and I know you will all wish her so much love and strength, cos that sh@t is hard.

#covid #covid_19 #coviddeath #lossinlockdown #widowed #soberaf #widowedaf

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01 Oct 2023#66 Chatty00:36:14

Rosie and Jon are back to catch up on their week and reflect in the lovely Vicky's episode. Her husband died from Covid meter hours after being admitted to hospital.
We cover lack of support in mental health, the fear of helplessness and our shared love of peanut M&Ms.


Oh and there's a sort of 'competition' and a guest appearance from the delightful Emma Gray,  you can finder her on Instagram @rainbowhunting and at here website https://www.rainbowhunting.co.uk/


If you would like to jump straight into the full information,  here is the direct link https://rainbowhunting.kartra.com/page/GLAGcourse



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02 Oct 2023#67 - David Kelly01:07:49

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09 Oct 2023#69 - Lori Meeboer01:48:17

Today's episode is the hardest one I've recorded so far. And no I was definitely not okay!

For the first time Rosie speaks to a 'water widow' and emotions understandably are high. (had a panic attack minutes  before recording) 

Lori's husband  drowned leaving her and her family devastated and reeling.  A month long search ensued to find his body, leaving her trapped in a limbo that feels so familiar. 

But as always , within these stories of devastation  there are messages of love and strength and hope. 

It made Jon cry from eight minutes in but it genuinely is a story of choosing to live after catastrophic loss and testimony to the wonderful woman that is Lori Meeboer (just don't make me say her surname!) 

Let us know what you think, but do listen with caution as it carries a high mascara warning.

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08 Oct 2023#68 - Chatty00:28:46

Spanking new episode from Rosie and Jon. 
We cover HRT (sorry gents) missed diagnosis in cancer patients, and a plethora of other topics. 

Love to all.

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23 Oct 2023#71 - Melitta Honeycup01:15:37

In this week's episode of Widowed AF, I had the opportunity to speak with the incredibly strong  (in every way!) and talented Melitta Honeycup. 

Joining us all the way from Barcelona. We delve into the sudden and tragic loss of her much adored partner, Jordi, and the waves of shock and challenges that followed. From the heart-wrenching moment of receiving the news to the complexities of navigating grief amidst patriarchal societal expectations. 

I'm truly grateful to Metilla for sharing her story with us. Join us for a conversation that's both heartrending and hopeful. And DEFINITELY check her insta out 🔥.

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18 Oct 2023In conversation with Donna Ashworth01:41:11

Donna Ashworth is VERY famous  right now, current Sunday Times number one best seller with her (genuinely) beautiful book, Wild Hope.  She is especially highly regarded in the widow community for how accurately and poignant she writes about loss. Yet she's not widowed herself, I was fascinated to know how she knew what we felt. 

I was so fortunate enough to persuade (stalk) her to come and talk about what the inspiration is behind those powerful words. 


We cover as many topics as you might imagine ( genuine lols at us getting ready to sign off three times ,  then finding something else VITAL  to discuss)  I genuinely  felt like we sat side by side and met kindred and much admired spirit. 


Thank you Donna for bearing your precious soul and loving a deep and true conversation as much as me. 


As Donna says 'you can't feel ugly when you're smiling', and  I hope you enjoy listening as much as I enjoyed talking to a woman who's felt like a friend for a long time and is certainly one now.   


She also calls me inspirational, just saying.) 


Trigger warnings- eating disorders. 


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20 Oct 2023#70 Chatty00:24:30

As episodes go, this one swings hard. From the the importance of speaking your darkest thoughts,      Jon's love of systemising and the possible existence of multiple soulmates.
And yes, I mentioned my gorgeous conversation with @donnaashworthwords. 😉

Most importantly though,  we reflect on the heart-wrencher that was Lori's (excellent) episode, (there's a clip for those that are catching up ). 

Talking to her, hearing the words I had blocked from my memory echoed back was hard, obviously, but it genuinely feels like we took another big step forward together. 

She really is a wise lady. I just wish she didn't have the audacity to live in Canada. 

Trigger warnings- 
sudden death
drowning
Rosie crying

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30 Oct 2023#73 - Louise Dodds01:21:59

In an(other) emotional episode, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Louise Dodds, a young widow who tragically lost her partner Andy in a cycling accident while he was on holiday. 

Louise shares her story, from receiving the devastating phone call, to having to crowdfund to repatriate Andy's body back home. 

Rosie and Louise bond over both being sudden death widows and the complicated grief that comes with the lack of closure. 

Louise candidly discusses the struggles of the early days of grief - not eating, only sleeping with wine, and returning to work too soon. 

Later in the episode, Louise opens up about deciding not to have children with her new partner of 4 years due to fertility issues, and learning to accept her stepson as enough. 

The story ends on a high note, with Louise revealing she recently got engaged to her (alive) partner and we wish them all the love  and happiness in their continuation of life together. ♥️💫

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27 Oct 2023#72 - Chatty00:21:30

Hello listeners! 
A fresh new episode where Jon and I, fresh from our mini-break in Amsterdam, chat about everything from our wanderings in the rain to the challenges of parenting. 

We also reflect on the powerful episode with Melita Honeycup, discussing the complexities of being an unmarried widow in a patriarchal society. 

We also touch on the still taboo topics of menopause and PMDD, and the importance of raising awareness. Plus, a sneak peek into our upcoming Halloween party and the exciting plans for Widstock. 

So, grab your cuppa  or your dog's lead, and join us for more insight into a life we built together around monumental loss

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06 Nov 2023#75 - Clare Hardy01:17:32

In this episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss is joined by Clare Hardy, a young widow navigating grief and single parenthood after the death of her wife Rupa. Rupa had Hodgkin's lymphoma and passed away from complications of cellulitis at age 36, leaving behind Clare and their two young children.

Clare bravely shares the details of Rupa's illness, her unconventional decision to refuse chemotherapy, and the rapid decline in her health near the end. She talks about the heartbreaking realization that Rupa would not survive, despite her adamant belief that she would recover.

Clare also opens up about accessing end-of-life care as a same-sex couple, the logistics of managing her wife's care and raising two small children alone, and the disenfranchised grief she experienced before gay marriage was legalized.


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13 Nov 2023#77 - Maria Margetts01:34:16

In this enlightening episode, your host,  Rosie Gill-Moss, is joined by Maria Margetts.

Maria opens up about her journey as a trans woman who began  her transition after losing her wife, Mandy to ovarian cancer.

Maria shares their love story, their desire for a child  and Mandy's eventual death. She discusses the challenges of raising their two adopted children, including a daughter with Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder.

After Mandy's death, Maria joined a widow's support group which gave the courage to come out as trans.

What's lovely is the acceptance she's found both at work and within her family.

Maria also shares her pride in becoming an ambassador for WAY @widowedandyoung to support other LGBTQ members. 

She offers a unique, yet also familiar (we all change, right?) insight into grieving a spouse who never knew her as she is now. Maria is funny, candid and utterly captivating, you'll love this one.

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03 Nov 2023#74 - Chatty00:35:15

This week on Widowed AF, Rosie and Jonathan reflect on some of the key takeaways from Louise Dodds' recent episode about losing her husband Andy in a cycling accident abroad. They discuss the unique challenges of grief when you don't have children, the importance of life insurance, and the role of being a "keeper of memories" for your late partner.

Rosie shares how her son  opened up about wanting to learn more about his late father Ben, and how special those moments of connection can be. Jonathan talks about dealing with emotions from his challenging childhood resurfacing. Both acknowledge the ups and downs of grief and mental health being a continuous process.

The hosts also reminisce about rebuilding social circles after loss, favorite memories from a recent blended family party, and the highlights of their week. As always, they send love and support to fellow widows and anyone coping with grief or mental health struggles. Tune in next week for an interview with Claire Hardy, Widowed AF's first lesbian guest who advocates for greater representation of the LGBTQ+ community.

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10 Nov 2023#76 - Chatty00:35:01

Hello lovelies! Welcome back to another episode of Widowed AF, where Jon and Rosie, deep dive (terrible)  into a chatty catch-up about our week. It's been a rollercoaster, as always! 

This week, we brought  you an incredibly special chat with Claire, a lesbian widow, who shared her story about her partner Rupa's battle with Hodgkin's Lymphoma, and the complexities of raising children in the shadow of grief.


As usual, we get real about our personal struggles with mental health, therapy (because, let's face it, we all need a bit of that!), and the whirlwind of managing a big, neurodiverse family. We also have a good natter about our hobbies, how fitness routines help our mental health (cold baths, anyone?), and some exciting news about the upcoming Widowed AF merchandise line. Plus, I share my musings on perimenopause and the wonders of hormone replacement therapy - trust me, it's a game changer!

Join us for a heartfelt, sometimes hilarious, and always honest conversation. We're all about keeping it real and providing a sense of community for anyone walking through the maze of widowhood and life's unexpected twists.

Key Topics:

Claire's Inspiring Story: Discussing lesbian widowhood, coping with a partner's illness, and facing the future bravely.

Mental Health Chats: The importance of therapy, especially for men (looking at you, Jonathan), and dealing with life's stressors.

Family Dynamics: The challenges and joys of raising neurodiverse children, and why support and understanding are everything.

Life & Hobbies: From fitness routines to hobbies that never quite stuck (like my candle making kit!), and our excitement for Widowed AF merch.

Community Love: Remembering that we're all in this together, so don't be shy to reach out or share. Whether you're a long-time listener or new to our podcast family, we hope you enjoy feeling less alone out there ♥️

Next Episode Tease: Don't miss our next episode, where we'll share Maria's unique and compelling story - it's one you won't want to miss.

Reminder: Tune in every Monday for new episodes and be part of our ever-growing Widowed AF community. We're here for the chats, the laughs, and all the support.


Links :
Free. Metal Health Support.   - https://www.iesohealth.com/

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20 Nov 2023#79 - Rhiannon Williams01:11:00

Join Rosie Gill-Moss in this episode of 'Widowed AF' as she welcomes Rhiannon Williams, whose story of love and loss echoes with profound rawness and authenticity. Rhiannon delves into her whirlwind romance with Leighton, painting a vivid picture of a relationship filled with boundless love, overshadowed by the looming challenges of mental health struggles. 

As she recounts the heart-wrenching journey through Leighton's battle and its tragic culmination, the conversation takes us through a labyrinth of emotions – from the dizzying highs of deep connection to the devastating lows of loss and grief. 

This episode not only explores the personal impact of bereavement but also casts a light on the broader issues surrounding mental health and societal support systems. Rosie and Rhiannon's dialogue invites listeners to understand the complexities of navigating life after losing a partner, offering insights into resilience, hope, and the ongoing process of healing.

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17 Nov 2023#78 - Chatty00:26:24

In this episode of Widowed AF,Rosie and Jon revisit the extraordinary story of their previous guest, Maria, discussing how her experiences resonate with broader themes of grief and identity change. 

The couple reiterate the importance of peer support groups like Widowed and Young (WAY). They also share personal anecdotes about how grief so often leads to transformation in many different guises. 

The episode also covers practical aspects of coping with loss, such as how to acknowledge
significant anniversaries, and how they support their own children through bereavement. 

A candid and insightful discussion for anyone navigating those choppy waters (why is everything water related?) that can be their own mental health.

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24 Nov 2023#80 - Chatty00:25:03

In the latest episode of "Widowed AF", host Rosie Gill-Moss, alongside her ever-supportive husband Jonathan, delves into the heart of what it means to live with loss, in a conversation that’s as real as it gets. Episode #80, titled "A Journey Through Grief and Resilience," is a poignant reminder of the complexities and unexpected turns of the grieving process.

The episode features the powerful story of Rhiannon, who grapples with the aftermath of her partner Leighton's suicide. Rhiannon's narrative is not just about loss; it's a raw, unvarnished look at how grief intersects with societal perceptions of relationships and widowhood. Her story poignantly highlights the need for a more inclusive recognition of diverse relationships in the context of loss.

Rosie and Jonathan also share their experience speaking at a training conference for student nurses, emphasizing the importance of compassion in healthcare, particularly in end-of-life care. They draw on their personal experiences to illustrate the profound impact that empathetic care can have on grieving families.

One of the most striking aspects of this episode is the discussion around the fifth anniversary of Sarah's death. Jonathan's reflections on memory, and how grief changes yet persists over time, are both touching and insightful.

The episode doesn't shy away from the harsh realities of grief attacks and the importance of acknowledging progress, however small. Rosie and Jonathan's conversation is a testament to the unpredictable nature of grief and the value of community support in navigating these challenges.

As the holiday season approaches, they touch upon its impact on those in mourning. Their message is clear: it's okay not to have a "perfect" holiday experience, and seeking simplicity and support is more than alright.

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25 Nov 2023#81 - Scott Stringer00:59:58

In today's episode of Widowed AF Rosie Gill-Moss invites us into conversation with Scott Stringer, as he described how he navigated his personal  journey of love, loss, and rediscovery. 
Scott shares his 14-year love story with Dan, his late partner. 

As Scott opens up he touches on the complexities of navigating a relationship that wasn't fully accepted by Dan's family due to their strong Christian beliefs. 
Scott recounts the harrowing experience of losing Dan unexpectedly, detailing the profound impact of this loss on his 

Scott delves into the intricacies of his grieving process, from the raw emotions to the practicalities of organising Dan's funeral. He doesn't shy away from discussing the societal pressures and internal conflicts he faced while moving forward.

A glimmer of hope and renewal shines through as Scott talks about meeting Michael, his current husband, and how they honour Dan's memory in their life together. Rosie and Scott explore the delicate balance of honouring past love while embracing new beginnings, touching on themes of resilience, the societal taboos around grief, and the journey to find love again after a profound loss.

Today's episode is another testament to the strength of the human spirit in the face of adversity. 

Every episode  is a unique, believe me, every widow has a story.....

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01 Dec 2023#82 - Chatty00:20:32

In this episode of Widowed AF, Rosie and John discuss various topics related to grief and loss. They start off with some banter and then dive into a conversation about Scott's episode, which was released earlier in the week. Scott shares his experience of losing his partner and the challenges he faced as a gay widower. Rosie and John talk about the importance of love and support from parents, as well as the secondary losses that come with grief.

They also touch on the impact of work stress on mental health, the role of pets in providing comfort, and the need for open discussions about sex and intimacy in grief. The conversation takes a heartfelt turn as John opens up about his own experience of not receiving support during his wife's illness and after her death. He shares his journey of setting boundaries and seeking therapy to heal the wounds that this caused.

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04 Dec 2023#83 - Anna Bignell01:37:34

Remembering Rich. Anna Bignell opens up about her late husband, Rich, and the beautiful life they created together and the tragedy of his suicide. 

Anna discusses the importance of keeping his memory alive. She does so through her fundraising  initiatives, 'Ramble for Rich' and 'Pitchside for Rich', which are not just tributes to Rich but also platforms to raise awareness about mental .

Anna shares her experiences of parenting in the wake of her husband's suicide. She offers insights into how she's helping her children navigate their emotions and foster resilience during this challenging time.

Rosie and Anna delve into the importance of mental health awareness and support, particularly in the context of bereavement and suicide.

This episode highlights the power of community support and the role it plays in healing and finding hope after loss.

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11 Dec 2023#85 - Jennifer Plant01:38:34

 In this episode of Widowed AF, Jen candidly shares her experience of navigating life after the tragic loss of her husband. She opens up about the challenges she faced, including feeling lost and infantilised, financial struggles, and lack of support. Jen discusses the process of selling possessions and dealing with financial instability. She also reflects on the difficulties of navigating death administrative tasks and seeking financial assistance.

Throughout the conversation, Jen and Rosie explore various topics related to complex grief, identifying as a widow, comparing grief experiences, and finding happiness after loss. They delve into the complexities of starting new relationships and navigating step-family dynamics, emphasising the importance of open communication and understanding.

Jen's resilience and ambition shine through as she shares her personal journey of growth and healing. Rosie acknowledges Jen's strength and highlights that many successful individuals have emerged from difficult circumstances. By sharing her story, Jen provides a voice for others who have experienced similar losses and offers insights into the healing process.

Tune in to Widowed AF as Jen's inspiring journey reminds us of the resilience of the human spirit and the potential for growth and happiness even after unimaginable loss.

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08 Dec 2023#84 - Chatty00:51:05

Join Rosie Gill-Moss in this heartwarming yet candid episode of "Widowed AF" as we dive into the complexities of widowhood during the festive season. Rosie and her guest discuss the overwhelming nature of parenting, school responsibilities, and the unique challenges of celebrating holidays while grieving. They touch upon the importance of self-compassion and letting go of the pursuit of perfection, especially during emotionally charged times like Christmas.

The episode features a profound conversation with Anna Bignell, who shares her journey of coping with her husband's suicide and the impact it has had on her family. Anna's story highlights the importance of mental health awareness, particularly in the context of men in high-pressure jobs, and the critical need for appropriate support and therapy. The discussion also delves into the significance of keeping the memory of lost loved ones alive, especially during the holidays, through personal rituals and charity work.

Listeners will find solace in the shared experiences of navigating grief, the struggle for self-care, and the journey towards finding a new normal after loss. Rosie's empathetic approach provides a space for understanding and connection, offering a beacon of hope to those facing similar challenges.

Remember, you're not alone in your journey. Tune in for a blend of heartfelt stories, practical advice, and a reminder that it's okay to find joy amidst sorrow.

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18 Dec 2023#87 - Dan Frost01:53:41

In this episode, Dan Frost talks to Rosie about devastating loss of his wife, Lisa, to cancer. He shares the profound impact her illness had on their family and the unique challenges he now faces as a widowed male parent.

Hosted by Rosie Gill-Moss, this conversation explores the search for meaning and support in the face of unimaginable pain. Dan's open and honest storytelling serves as an inspiration to anyone who has experienced loss and is in the process of rebuilding their life.

Dan is convinced by the power of running for mental health, and it gives him a way to fundraise in Lisa's memory, keeping that all important legacy alive. Rosie may or may not have mentioned her marathon 😉.

As the episode comes to a close, Dan leaves listeners with a powerful message of hope and encouragement, reminding them that they are not alone. His strength and determination are evident as he shares the highs and lows of his journey, offering hope to those In the eye of the storm.

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26 Dec 2023#89 - Lisa Aldridge01:03:34

In this episode of Widowed AF , Rosie warmly welcomes her latest guest, Lisa Aldridge. Lisa's story, woven with threads of love, loss, and newfound happiness, unfolds like a novel you can't put down.

Our story begins with Lisa, a vibrant volunteer at St John Ambulance, where fate brings Gavin into her life. Their connection is instant and profound, leading them down the aisle and into a life filled with shared dreams and the laughter of three beautiful daughters.

But life, as it often does, turns a new page. One ordinary day, while working in his unit, Gavin suffers a tragic accident. The details are heart-wrenching as Lisa recalls the aftermath, painting a vivid picture of a world turned upside down.

As the chapters of grief and coping unfold, Lisa's narrative takes a hopeful turn. She dips her toes into the world of online dating, where Chris, her now-husband, emerges as a character brimming with understanding and love. Together, they embark on the challenging yet rewarding journey of blending two families, each with its unique past and shared future.

Rosie and Lisa delve into the delicate art of balancing memories and moving forward. They discuss how maintaining Gavin's legacy coexists with embracing the joy Chris brings into their lives.

Lisa's journey, beautifully narrated in this episode, is a tale of resilience. It's about finding love in unexpected places, the complexities of blending a new family, and the endless capacity of the heart to embrace both past and present.

As the episode draws to a close, Rosie reflects on the universal themes of love, loss, and the courage to find happiness again. Lisa's story is not just her own but a beacon of hope for anyone navigating the waters of grief and love.

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08 Jan 2024#91 - Nina Edwards01:08:55

In this episode , we invite you to join Nina Edwards. Nina's story is one of love rediscovered, a tale of finding joy in the most unexpected places, only to face the unthinkable – the loss of her soulmate to a cruel and relentless illness.

As a single mother, Nina's world took a turn for the brighter when she met Owen through their sons' shared love for football. Their friendship blossomed into a beautiful love story, offering them both a second chance at happiness. But as they navigated the blending of families and overcoming past hardships, they were confronted with a dire challenge – Owen's sudden cancer diagnosis.

Nina recounts their fight against the odds, their determination to seize every moment together, and how they faced Owen's illness with courage and love. From purchasing their dream home to planning a future together, their story is a testament to the power of love in the face of life's most daunting challenges.

This episode is not just about the grief of losing a loved one. It's about the resilience of the human spirit, the importance of support systems, and the journey of healing. Nina opens up about her coping mechanisms, the solace she found in her family and Owen's, and her journey through the grieving process.

Nina's story is a timely reminder of the unpredictability of life, the enduring strength of love, and the unyielding courage it takes to keep fu@&ing going.


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15 Dec 2023#86 - Chatty00:21:50

Join Rosie and her (alive) husband, Jonathan Gill-Moss as they navigate widowhood, marriage and parenting together.

Today ‘s episode features a conversation about Jen Platt's story, revealing how she experienced complex grief and embarked on self-discovery after her husband Mike's sudden death.

Additionally, the hosts explore the profound impact of losing a close friend, emphasising the depth and significance of platonic love.

Rosie and Jonathan also discuss the challenges of the festive season, the creation of new traditions, and the pursuit of festive joy post-loss. Their open and honest conversation offers a genuine look at the ups and downs of widowed life, some of it is even funny (to us).

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29 Jan 2024#93 - Leonie Thorpe01:10:31

In episode #93 of the Widowed AF podcast, host Rosie Gill-Moss introduces us to Leonie Thorpe, whose story unfolds against the backdrop of the pandemic.

Leonie's tale is one of love, the importance of family, and the unique challenges of grieving in an unprecedented global crisis.

Leonie met her partner Richard in 2012, both having been previously married with children. Their relationship led to a beautiful, blended family of nine (!!) children. Their life together consisted of all the expected challenges of a large family, but was one filled with love and joy.

Their lives took a dramatic turn when Richard discovered a lump on his neck. Initially diagnosed as a manageable case of head and neck cancer, Richard underwent aggressive treatment. The couple was optimistic, as doctors were confident about his recovery, and began to believe they had a future.

Leonie speaks candidly about the heart-wrenching journey that followed. The pandemic's restrictions added an excruciating layer to their ordeal. Richard's condition deteriorated rapidly, and he had to receive his terminal diagnosis alone, a moment that deeply affected both of them. She shares her struggles with anger towards the healthcare system and her quest to find peace and acceptance.

Their children, each dealing with grief in their unique ways, faced the loss of their father amidst global isolation and fear.

Don’t miss this one!

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22 Dec 2023#88 - Chatty00:25:04

In this chatty episode of Widowed AF, Rosie and Jon tackle the dreaded holiday season while navigating their own and their children’s  grief, festive expectations and Rosie’s  ‘near death’ experience with Flu. 

The episode offers practical strategies for maintaining traditions and well-being during the holidays. And comforting to those who may be struggling this year. 

Additionally, the hosts revisit and reflect on a previous episode featuring Dan Frost. They share the profound impact of Dan's story, particularly the  parallels between Dan's experiences and Jon’s. 

The couple discuss the power of  telling your truth with honesty and integrity and finding solace in  your tribe. 

Also anyone making midnight tonight? 😆

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05 Jan 2024#90 - Chatty00:22:12








* Apologies for the sound on Jon's microphone today.   

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12 Feb 2024#95 - Analia Boltuch01:17:51

Analia shares her story of meeting her husband, their life together, and the tragic event that led to his sudden death. She discusses the challenges of being a solo parent and the impact of grief on her life.

We cover the often tricky process of dating and finding love again, as well as the importance of preserving memories and creating new ones. Ultimately, it emphasizes the resilience and strength required to rebuild life and find joy in the midst of grief. Analia's journey is not just about immense tragedy, but also about the fight back.

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24 Jan 2024#92 - Chat00:11:37

It’s  back! 
In today’s   episode,  Rosie explains what prompted  the couple’s recent need to take some time off. You’ll miss the your resident Northern widower (aka the alive husband), but fear not,  he will be back next week. 

There is also some thrilling  news concerning Widstock 2024,  and toilets. As well as the usual  wanderings of a scattered mind.
 


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09 Feb 2024#94 - Chatty00:35:55

Today host Rosie is joined by (alive) husband Jon after a couple of weeks off, and in the episode we tell you why…

We talk about mental health, both in relation to grief and also in terms of past trauma, misdiagnosis and the other scary sounding things you may uncover through therapy. 😬

The term ‘Ambiguous Grief’ puts a name to the feeling of uncertainty and confusion around a death- something so many of us will relate to, and resonates particularly hard with Rosie who’s husband, Ben, was lost at sea.

We hope to offer both reassurance that you’re not alone and to remind bit our listeners, and ourselves we are all learning on the job and not one single one of us is perfect. Be it parenting, widowing, or just trying to bumble through life unscathed, We gotcha.

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26 Feb 2024#9701:16:05

In this episode of "Widowed AF," Rosie Gill-Moss interviews our guest  about her life after the loss of her husband Tom, her challenges as a foreigner in the UK, and raising a son with autism. She shares insights into her experiences, including navigating legal and financial hurdles post-loss and understanding her son's neurodiversity. This episode sheds light on coping with unexpected life changes, the intricacies of widowhood, and parenting a child with autism, offering perspectives on resilience and adaptation.

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23 Feb 2024#96 - Chatty AF00:28:09

The dynamic widowed duo are back, taking all things grief, parenting and falling in mud- I got knocked down, but I got up again 😉. 

We are rapidly approaching our 100th episode, which feels impossible and makes us so proud of you all.  Today we reflect on this monumental milestone and all that we have learned along the way. 

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07 Mar 2024#98 - Chatty00:24:52
This episode explores the vital importance of self-care and finding healthy outlets to recharge, especially for widowed parents dealing with grief while raising children. Rosie and John discuss taking breaks when needed, whether it's spending a night alone at a hotel or engaging in hobbies and activities that allow you to temporarily remove yourself from the pressures of parenting. They emphasise not feeling guilty about prioritising your own wellbeing, and not judging others' self-care practices. Throughout, the message is clear - as a widowed parent, you cannot pour from an empty cup, so making time for your own emotional, mental and physical needs is essential, not selfish.

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