The Enrealment Hour (Jeff Brown)

Patriarchal spiritualities are the antithesis of an embodied and inclusive consciousness. They confuse self-avoidance with awakening, and make it impossible for humanity to recognize and transform the challenging realities before us. Detached from the stuff of our humanness, we become incapacitated with respect to effecting real change. In this dialogue, Jeff and Rob deconstruct ‘patriarchal spirituality’ and invite us to embrace a spirituality that honors all the aspects of our uniquely human story: our egos, our bodies, our feelings, our traumas, our relationality, our individuated purpose. With our hearts on our sleeves, and our boots on the ground, we are then present for all of this, and capable of making a real difference. 

Links:

Jeff Brown’s primary website

Jeff's quoted book ‘Grounded Spirituality’

Rob Brezsny’s website

Rob’s most recent book

Trevor Hall’s website

Trevor Hall’s album ‘The Fruitful Darkness’

In this conversation, Jeff and Arielle Ford discuss her new book, ‘The Love Thief’. And they have a depthful conversation about love and relationship. Not the fairy tale version, but the "enrealed" one.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Personal sessions with Jeff... https://jeffbrown.co/sessions/

Arielle Ford’s website: https://www.arielleford.com/

Link to purchase ‘The Love Thief’... https://www.amazon.com/Love-Thief-Novel-Arielle-Ford/dp/1774822075/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this very vulnerable conversation, Jeff and author Chris Grosso advocate for a spirituality that is indistinguishable from our humanness, one that never imagines itself fully realized or enlightened. Chris talks about his addiction history, and shares some of the learnings and practices that helped him through. Two ‘not spiritual teachers’ rejecting soulebrity and Godjectification, on a quest for that which is grounded and true. 

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s books and download courses: https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Jeff Brown’s book ‘Grounded Spirituality’: https://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Spirituality-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648033/

Chris Grosso’s book ‘Indie Spiritualist’: https://www.amazon.com/Indie-Spiritualist-Bullshit-Exploration-Spirituality/dp/1582704627/

Chris’s book ‘Everything Mind’: https://www.amazon.com/Everything-Mind-Spiritual-Awakening-Mind-Blowing/dp/1622035291/

Accelerated Resolution Therapy: https://acceleratedresolutiontherapy.com/

Henry Rollins: https://www.henryrollins.com/

EMDR Institute: https://www.emdr.com/what-is-emdr/

Trevor Hall’s website: https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s song ‘Arrows’: https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this podcast, Jeff Brown introduces the concept of the "forgiveness bypass"—commonly encouraged in shaming religious and "new cage" communities. And, at 5:15 he shares a very helpful exercise that he calls 'Have you Truly Forgiven"? for anyone who has been pressured into forgiving when their truth is otherwise. Truth is the gateway to the moment. An invitation to live in truth with respect to how we feel about events in our lives.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

"Have you Truly Forgiven" is an excerpt from Jeff's new course, 'The Enrealment Method: Where Presence meets Purpose". Next course begins on March 27th, 2024. https://www.soulshapinginstitute.com/events/the-enrealment-method-where-presence-meets-purpose-3/

Jeff's Abandonment Wound Healing Course can be downloaded at https://jeffbrown.co/the-abandonment-wound-healing-course/

Trevor Hall's Song Arrows can be found at https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this conversation, Jeff and Carmen begin by exploring her shift from lawyer to SE practitioner. And Carmen helps us to understand the benefits of Somatic Experiencing for those who are struggling with unresolved trauma. SE is beneficial on many different levels. It helps us to regulate our nervous system, solidify new ways of being, and live an embodied life. The healing has begun!

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Jeff’s abandonment wound healing course… https://jeffbrown.co/the-abandonment-wound-healing-course/

Visit Carmen online at… https://carmencasado.com/

Somatic Experiencing resources at…  https://traumahealing.org/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this conversation, TRE practitioner Tara Rai tells us her poignant story of self-acceptance and overcoming. She shares the details of her birth trauma and consequent disability, and many of the steps that she took to love herself and live more freely within her body. 

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Jeff's main website (courses, books, writings): https://jeffbrown.co/

To book a TRE session with Tara... www.trewithtara.com 

To enjoy Tara's music... www.tara-rai.com/music

Trevor Hall's song 'Arrows'... https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this very genuine dialogue, Jeff and Erica get into her story of overcoming addiction and finding her true voice in the world. They explore the roots of her past addiction, and Erica shares some of the tools that have helped her to empower herself and to develop ways of being (and believing) that would honor and actualize her many gifts and offerings. A true story of overcoming that can inspire us all!

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Jeff’s next writing course… https://www.soulshapinginstitute.com/events/writing-your-way-home-answering-the-souls-call-20/

Visit Erica online for resources, signed books, and more: http://ericaspiegelman.com/

Purchase Erica’s books: http://bit.ly/EricaSpiegelman

Enroll in The Rewired Program: https://rewired.ericaspiegelman.com/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this enheartened conversation, Jeff and Toko-pa discuss her brilliant book, “Belonging”. They focus on the challenges associated with growing up with a ‘Death Mother’, the meaningful difference between an indoctrinated and a self-originating consciousness, and the many ways that our dreams can provide comfort and lead us home. In a world that seems determined to extinguish our uniqueness, this conversation reminds us that it is never too late to excavate and embody our unique sacred purpose. And to bring our callings, gifts, and offerings to a starving world. 

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s primary website (courses and books): https://jeffbrown.co/

Jeff’s Enrealment Dictionary (‘truth aches’ etc.): https://jeffbrown.co/enrealment-dictionary/

Toko-pa’s website: https://toko-pa.com/

Her book, “Belonging”: https://www.amazon.com/Belonging-Remembering-Ourselves-Toko-pa-Turner/dp/1775111202/

Trevor Hall’s website: https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

His album, “The Fruitful Darkness”: https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

Others mentioned in the podcast:

https://danielasieff.com/

https://www.johnodonohue.com/

Empathy is a fascinating topic, one that unites the question of healthy boundaries with a vulnerable way of being. In Jeff’s conversation with Judith Orloff- often referred to as the “Godmother of the empath movement”, she helps us to understand what it means to move through life with an empathic way of being. 

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Jeff’s new book ‘Humanifestations: On Trauma, Truth, and Transformation’: https://www.amazon.com/Humanifestations-Trauma-Transformation-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648130/

Jeff’s Substack Newsletter: https://jeffbrown42.substack.com/

Dr. Orloff’s website: www.drjudithorloff.com 

Trevor Hall’s song ‘Arrows’... https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this 3rd dialogue in a series, Jeff and author/mystic Andrew Harvey discuss Andrew's book of translated writings, 'Becoming God: 108 Epigrams from the Cherubinic Pilgrim by Angelus Silesius', in the context of the current ecological crisis.

Links and Resources:

Grounded Spirituality (book): https://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Spirituality-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648033/

An Uncommon Bond (book): https://www.amazon.com/Uncommon-Bond-Jeff-Brown/dp/0980885957/

Jeff's Healing, Transformative Download courses: https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Andrew Harvey's Website: https://www.andrewharvey.net/

Trevor Hall's song 'Arrows': https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this essential conversation, Jeff interviews Jessica Nathanson and explores her courageous journey from a more dissociated spirituality to one that honors her magnificent humanness. Jessica shares insights gathered from her lived experience, as she brings a healing and grounded message to our world.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown's main website... https://jeffbrown.co/

Jeff's next Enrealment Method course... https://www.soulshapinginstitute.com/events/the-enrealment-method-where-presence-meets-purpose-4/

Jeff's book 'Grounded Spirituality'...  https://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Spirituality-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648033/

Trevor Hall's song 'Arrows'...  https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

Look for Jessica Nathanson's 'Collective Soul Revival' Online Support Community

In this heartfelt dialogue, Jeff and counselor Gavi Strauss address the current mental health crisis in youth. They acknowledge its severity, explore its roots, and make an effort to find grounded and inspiring solutions. 

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Personal sessions with Jeff...  https://jeffbrown.co/sessions/

Gavriel’s website: https://gavrielstrauss.com 

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this very engaging dialogue, Jeff and Dr. Berceli talk about the origins of David’s brilliant TRE (Tension and Trauma Release Exercises) methodology. Jeff shares his personal experience with TRE, and David describes the method and its various benefits. There is something so simple, yet profound, about TRE. It is both a gentle and depthful invitation to connect with your emotional and physical armor, and to release what is ready to move. Tremoring as an individual healing path, and as a collective unifier. Because when we meet ourselves and each other in these vulnerable places, we realize that we are all in this together. We are this, together… 

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SHOW NOTES/LINKS:

Jeff Brown’s books and download courses: https://jeffbrown.co/courses/ 

Jeff Brown’s 'Enrealment Newsletter' on Substack: https://jeffbrown42.substack.com/ 

David’s main website: https://traumaprevention.com/ 

David Berceli’s book ‘The Revolutionary Trauma Release Process’: https://www.amazon.com/Revolutionary-Trauma-Release-Process-Transcend/dp/1897238401/ 

David’s Instagram and Facebook pages: https://www.instagram.com/davidberceli/ and https://www.facebook.com/drberceli/ 

Trevor Hall’s website: https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/ Trevor Hall’s song ‘Arrows’: https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this engaging dialogue, Jeff and Phil discuss embodiment—as a way of being, a healing path, the primary way to escape our dissociating cultural web. Jeff reads various excerpts from Phil’s brilliant book—Radical Wholeness—and listens in while Phil shares meaningful and relatable details of his own embodiment journey. His quest for wholeness is an inspiration for us all.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s primary website (courses and books): https://jeffbrown.co/

Phil’s website: https://embodiedpresent.com/

Phil’s book, “Radical Wholeness”: https://www.amazon.com/Radical-Wholeness-Embodied-Present-Ordinary/dp/1623171776/

Jeff’s book, "Hearticulations": https://www.amazon.com/Hearticulations-Friendship-Healing-Jeff-Brown/dp/198864805X/

Trevor Hall’s website: https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

His album, “The Fruitful Darkness”: https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

His album, "In and Through the Body":

https://open.spotify.com/album/3RthcMmqG13Kk0jxR0Up0a

Others mentioned in the podcast: 

https://www.lowenfoundation.org/

https://www.stangrof.com/

In this conversation, Jeff speaks with Michelle Madrid about her powerful new book: “Let Us Be Greater: A Gentle, Guided Path to Healing for Adoptees”. Michelle shares her own journey, as an adoptee and an adoptive mother, and takes us deep into the challenges and delights of adoption.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Jeff’s Enrealment Method Course... https://www.soulshapinginstitute.com/events/the-enrealment-method-where-presence-meets-purpose-4/

Visit Michelle online at… https://themichellemadrid.com/

Purchase link for ‘Let us be Greater’… https://www.amazon.com/Let-Us-Be-Greater-Adoptees/dp/160868847X/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

Jeff and 'Your Consent is Not Required' author Rob Wipond discuss the realities of psychiatric malfeasance: needless detentions, forced treatments, abusive guardianships. egoic and money-driven quests for power and control. Rob shares his experiences and his data in a way that helps us to understand just how dangerous the system currently is, particularly if you encounter it during an emergency situation.

Links and Resources:

Rob Wipond's brilliant book, "Your Consent is Not Required"... https://www.amazon.com/Your-Consent-Not-Required-Guardianships/dp/1637741480/

Jeff Brown's Healing Books and Courses... https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Trevor Hall's song 'Arrows'... https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this riveting conversation with Fitness Trainer Annie Price, she shares the details of her profound early life trauma- that is, being severely burned in a fire- and some of the steps that she took to find peace and joy on her path. There are many takeaways from her story, but perhaps the most significant is her remarkable ability to find the light in the darkness. And to bring that brave light to those who need it. 

If you enjoy the show, please follow, rate, and review wherever you are listening. 

Want to share it? Use this link:

https://enrealmenthourpodcast.co/

Private sessions with Jeff: https://jeffbrown.co/sessions/

Jeff’s new book ‘Humanifestations: On Trauma, Truth, and Transformation’: https://www.amazon.com/Humanifestations-Trauma-Transformation-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648130/

Jeff’s new Substack Newsletter: https://jeffbrown42.substack.com/

Annie Price on IG... https://www.instagram.com/anniejprice

To connect with Annie’s work... https://www.wellwomanclub.com/

Trevor Hall’s song ‘Arrows’... https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this revealing conversation with singer and health coach Sheena Grobb, she talks very openly about her diagnoses of Multiple Sclerosis and the various events and patterns that may have contributed to it. This conversation touches on two very important issues: (1) When might a physical ailment be a response to an emotionally traumatic event? (2) The very personal and subjective nature of trauma. What is traumatic for one person may not be traumatic for another. But it is trauma nonetheless. 

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Sheena’s website: https://sheenagrobb.com

Her TEDxTalk : https://youtu.be/cqVmOH4bAzM

"Get Out Alive" Music Video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fohTiC897I4

To learn more about Sheena’s 90 Day Intensive called “GRACE” and to apply for a free "Breakthrough Session", visit https://sheenagrobb.com/health-and-life-coaching.

Jeff’s main website: https://jeffbrown.co/

Jeff’s next writing course: https://www.soulshapinginstitute.com/events/writing-your-way-home-answering-the-souls-call-20/

In this very connective conversation (Part 1/2), Jeff dialogues with IFS founder Richard Schwartz. Richard had originally connected with him after reading his book 'Grounded Spirituality' and feeling a kindred connection to its message. In this dialogue, Richard shares the origins of IFS (Internal Family Systems), and they actively discuss the nature of the self, processes of healing and transformation, and the true meaning of spirituality. 

Grounded Spirituality… https://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Spirituality-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648033/

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Richard’s new website...  https://ifs-institute.com/

Richard’s newest book... https://www.amazon.com/No-Bad-Parts-Restoring-Wholeness/dp/1683646681/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this riveting follow-up conversation, Jeff speaks with IFS founder Richard Schwartz. In this dialogue, they go deeper into the meaningful distinction between a notion of unity consciousness (and non-duality) that is dissociated from the self, and one that we arrive at organically, as a result of doing the work to heal, honor and integrate the core self. And they explore the relationship between the soul and the self, our guides and our encoded directionality, the meaningful distinction between couples that belong together (soulmates) and couples that perhaps don’t (woundmates). 

Links and Resources:

Grounded Spirituality… https://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Spirituality-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648033/

Soulshaping… https://jeffbrown.co/soulshaping-a-journey-of-self-creation/

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Richard’s new website... https://ifs-institute.com/

Richard’s newest book... https://www.amazon.com/No-Bad-Parts-Restoring-Wholeness/dp/1683646681/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this engaging conversation, Jeff Brown and Gavi Strauss critically review and examine patriarchal spirituality, discuss the meaningful distinction between a sky-down and feet-up spirituality, differentiate self-avoidant versions of awakening from self-honoring versions, clarify how it is that one can alchemize their localized and expansive threads of consciousness into one purposeful form, and lay down some of the tracks for an Enrealment Method that begins deep within the healing and development of the self, and that moves outward, and inward from there. In an enrealed world, we will no longer Godjectify and glorify so-called holy men like the Dalai Lama. We will be too busy living our spirituality as humanness to waste our time pretending that there is such a thing as an enlightened master. There isn't. It's a delusion forged in the fires of patriarchal ambition and dissociation.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown's book Grounded Spirituality... https://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Spirituality-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648033/

Book a free 30 minute intro call with Gavriel Strauss... https://www.gavrielstrauss.com/

Trevor Hall's Song 'Arrows'... Arrows - song and lyrics by Trevor Hall | Spotify

In this riveting dialogue, Jeff and Author Therapist David Bedrick take on shame, and discuss some of the things we can do to unshame and regain our sovereignty and healthy self-regard. It serves the powers that be if we are riddled with internalized shame. It serves us to rebuild our self-concepts and bring our brilliance into form. 

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Jeff’s next writing course…  https://www.soulshapinginstitute.com/events/writing-your-way-home-answering-the-souls-call-8/

David’s website: https://www.davidbedrick.com/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album, ‘The Fruitful Darkness’… https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this inspiring conversation, Jeff and activist-sacred dancer-living legend Banafsheh Sayyad discuss the recent death of Mahsa Amini, and the Iranian Revolution that has ensued. Banafsheh shares her Iranian background, the details of recent events, the way that religion has disembodied and disempowered us, the courage that is taking root within Iran. And they talk about the kind of ReBraving and ReEmbodiment that must happen so that we can see through abuse of power and effect real change. 

Links and Resources:

Banafsheh’s website... www.danceofoneness.org

Banafsheh’s film … https://danceofoneness.org/in-the-fire-of-grace/

Jeff Brown’s website and healing courses… https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Jeff’s Substack … https://jeffbrown42.substack.com/

Trevor Hall’s website… https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s song, ‘Arrows’… https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

Jeff Brown and author/mystic Andrew Harvey dive deep into the horrors of the patriarchy, the nature of abuse of power, and the path of individual and collective transformation that now calls us home. No more Godjectification of power-brokers and celebrity. It is time for us to band together and birth a new way of being and doing everything. One that celebrates our individual sovereignty, and energizes the callings, gifts and offerings that reside within us. And honors our beautiful planetary home.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s primary website: https://jeffbrown.co/

His quoted book, ‘Hearticulations’: https://www.amazon.com/Hearticulations-Friendship-Healing-Jeff-Brown/dp/198864805X

Andrew Harvey’s primary website: https://www.andrewharvey.net/ 

His quoted book, Son of Man: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0874779928/ 

His (and Chris Saade’s) brilliant relationship book, Evolutionary Love Relationships: https://www.amazon.com/Evolutionary-Love-Relationships-Authenticity-Activism/dp/0994784333/ 

Mathew Fox’s primary website: https://www.matthewfox.org/ 

Trevor Hall’s primary website: https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/ 

Trevor Hall’s album ‘The Fruitful Darkness’: https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG 

Jeff welcomes the listener to the Enrealment Hour Podcast. And shares his vision of possibility for the podcast going forward.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown’s primary website: https://jeffbrown.co/

His quoted book ‘Hearticulations’: https://www.amazon.com/Hearticulations-Friendship-Healing-Jeff-Brown/dp/198864805X

Trevor Hall’s primary website: https://www.trevorhallmusic.com/

Trevor Hall’s album ‘The Fruitful Darkness’: https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG

In this raw and real dialogue from 2019, Jeff and author-mystic Andrew Harvey discuss Jeff's book, Grounded Spirituality. They discuss patriarchal spirituality, the "New Cage Movement", and the current crisis that humanity faces. If ever there was a time to ground our spirituality in reality, it's now.

Links and Resources:

Grounded Spirituality (book): https://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Spirituality-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648033/

An Uncommon Bond (book): https://www.amazon.com/Uncommon-Bond-Jeff-Brown/dp/0980885957/

Jeff's Healing, Transformative Download courses: https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Andrew Harvey's Website: https://www.andrewharvey.net/

Trevor Hall's song 'Arrows': https://open.spotify.com/track/3PQIdQjXZQlRT2hoURf9Zs

In this hopeful dialogue, Jeff and 'Clearing Method' Shauna Quigley bring her healing story to the world: her early life traumas, the rise of the 'witness observer' in adolescence, her attempts to spiritual bypass, the return of the witness after becoming a Mother, and the healing method that was then birthed in the heart of her journey. Shauna has found a relatable and revolutionary way to alchemize the witness observer with the healing of our core wounds. This is brilliant stuff.

Links and Resources:

Jeff Brown's audio download courses... https://jeffbrown.co/courses/

Jeff's new book, Humanifestations... https://www.amazon.com/Humanifestations-Trauma-Transformation-Jeff-Brown/dp/1988648130/

Shauna Quigley's website... https://www.shaunaquigley.com/

Susan Frybort's next Poetry Healing Course... https://www.soulshapinginstitute.com/events/the-poetry-healing-course-writing-from-your-heart-and-soul-2/

Trevor Hall's brilliant album, The Fruitful Darkness... https://open.spotify.com/album/4ahv1YI2hpYOtXZsTIqYyG